Monday, October 10, 2011

Fuck you, right?

I finally get it. I finally get what it means to lose someone. It's weird, the only people I've ever really lost are the ones who have died. I have had one of the hardest lives of anyone I know. I've had boyfriends die, best friends, and family. The saddest part is that she knew that. She knew everything I have been through, and despite that she told me I was a horrible friend. Did it ever occur to her that maybe, just maybe I had a lot of shit going on in my life? She never considered that. Now, she's the one that left. We don't talk, she doesn't know me anymore. I have changed a lot, a lot has happened. She would have no idea, because she hasn't asked. I'm done thinking about it. What's another loss? It's sort of one of those, fuck you I'll get over it.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Help I'm alive.