L o s t

2012-01-07T19:19:00.001-08:00

Please help me

It hurts.

2011-11-01T15:00:00.000-07:00

Don't you just love when you try to help someone, you tell them what not to do, and who will hurt them; however, they then tell the person you are warning them about? Don't you just love how you will never be able to trust another human, no matter what? It is funny because I in fact do not love these lying son of a bitches.

Fuck you, right?

2011-10-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

I finally get it. I finally get what it means to lose someone. It's weird, the only people I've ever really lost are the ones who have died. I have had one of the hardest lives of anyone I know. I've had boyfriends die, best friends, and family. The saddest part is that she knew that. She knew everything I have been through, and despite that she told me I was a horrible friend. Did it ever occur to her that maybe, just maybe I had a lot of shit going on in my life? She never considered that. Now, she's the one that left. We don't talk, she doesn't know me anymore. I have changed a lot, a lot has happened. She would have no idea, because she hasn't asked. I'm done thinking about it. What's another loss? It's sort of one of those, fuck you I'll get over it.

Help I'm alive.

2011-10-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

Photos: http://windowsdown.tumblr.com/

Fast Car

2011-09-25T15:54:00.000-07:00

I realized that when people talk about being together with someone for a long time, they have no idea how long that person is going to be with them. What if they fall out of love, runaway from you, or cheat on you? If you're in love with a spectacular person, you must understand that trust is the number one priority in a relationship, it comes even before love. If you trust someone you won't be constantly worrying about what they are doing, that feeling of a gap or rather the long distance. It's the feeling of love not lasting forever, like it will slowly start to fade like your mother's jean jack from the sixties. The healthiest types of relationships are ones where you lead your own life, and then lean on him or her when you need them the most. However, it's not in a sense of dependence, but rather convenience and desire. Although, you can't be afraid to lean on them just because they will see your venerable. They already know you, sometimes better than you know yourself. Let them help you. Just trust the one person that makes you soar, and when they come to the realization that they have your complete trust. They can't ever break you, because they know you won't break them. Don't be afraid to trust if you know it's the right person to love. Love is dangerous, and as Spongebob stated, "Love is handing someone a loaded gun, and letting them point it at your head, believing they won't pull the trigger." However, when I gave him the gun he merely placed it down because he realized he couldn't hold my hand and gun, simultaneously. So as I conclude, I urge you to just give them the gun.

It's so hard when the world can be so ugly so much of the time.

2011-09-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

Depression is something that will really hit you hard. It sneaks up on you, pretends to be someone else: someone curious, someone different, it lures you into it's deep, dark abyss, and then suddenly it bites you. The bite is poisonous and this numbness pervades throughout your whole entire body. It enters every crevice and stays, until you decide it's time to kill the pesticide. This pesticide is almost impossible to terminate. Dealing with this thing, depression, it's nearly impossible. It's mostly because you hate yourself. Most people don't know when you're battling depression because the people that are, do the best of hiding their emotions. Only the people that are lucky enough to be there at that very moment of them cracking are able to see what it's really like. It's kind of like having a continuous hatred for yourself, and then when others start to hate you, you begin to hate yourself unbelievable amounts more. This cycle of hatred starts to build up over time and it only takes just one person to crack you, and they sometimes have no idea that they are doing it. But they still do it and you still begin to crumble. Nothing seems to matter, so why keep putting yourself through it? Through life? It takes a really fucking strong person to see why.

Just ask and you'll receive, beyond your wildest dreams.

2011-06-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

There is no escape from the slave catcher's songs

For all of the loved ones gone

Forever's not so long

But time is on your side Its on your side now. Not pushing you down and all around It’s no cause for concern

2011-06-02T15:59:00.000-07:00

One of the strange things about living in the world, is that it is only now and then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever.

2011-05-23T14:14:00.000-07:00

Saying goodbye is a time of total and complete chaos. You have no idea if it's going to last or for how long it will last. You have no idea how to function without that one stable element in your life. So how do you withdraw from its love? Or do you continue to linger? The hardest thing is re-learning the steps to happiness. It's like the first few months of a relationship: you have to create boundaries and live within them to feel some sort of safety. That's why goodbyes are so hard because you normally are saying goodbye to what makes you feel secure or guarded and that scares the fucking shit out of human nature.

I Think It's Called Love.

2011-05-12T11:35:00.000-07:00

Who knows, who cares?

2011-05-03T15:40:00.000-07:00

So we took a van down to colorado

Where we ran into the dead

I took you by the hand

Know that even with your doubts, it's okay

It's never quite as easily done

The current has us now, it's okay

No one's been there

But I don't care

Why can't we just rewind?

2011-04-27T13:45:00.000-07:00

Damn man kick out the likeness
The view is the prophet
I don't think you got this

Images: tumblr, http://www.flickr.com/photos/underscore_ian/with/5483061145/, Taken by me.

Help, I'm alive.

2011-04-25T19:21:00.000-07:00

A broken star is what you have become to exist as.

An extraterrestrial piece of nothing is what you tend to be.

You aren’t are a star because you illuminate the cracks in her broken bones.

You’re a star because you’re a trapped piece of cosmic debris.

And the worst part about you is the way you think you have to make every person’s wish come true.

Why are you absolutely incapable of letting a light diminish, if it means hurting a person you love?

Let the broken clouds soar and the confused adolescents cry.

Let her fuck up and drink herself to happiness. She’s drugged most of the time your with her, but on something you will never know.

She’s high on the desire to live for herself something you’ll never know.

Every time she sees a star she makes sure to let it go hoping one day you’ll eat in that meadow too.

I can be lovely for you if that's what you want. I can be anything for you, but I know you don't want me.

2011-04-20T09:04:00.001-07:00

Stay or leave?

2011-04-10T09:56:00.001-07:00

I've decided there's a vast difference between leaving a place and leaving a person. I am the type of human that seeks change. I'm the type of person that needs the comfort that something more will come. So by having this quality I have to ensure that my future is never at a standstill. I’d like to be associated with millions of different tidbits especially ones that orbit at a million miles per hour, danger. Danger is then tied up with fear which brings me to the fear of leaving. When I think about leaving my house, I think about the cracks in the Victorian wallpaper, the rusty stove, and the worn, burnt chimney bricks. The people that surround this ideology of my flawless picket fence lifestyle are so similar to that house. Each one of my friends seems to be splitting in half like the paper plastered onto my walls. I think about how each one has had to shine for such an extended period of time, and their tireless qualities can now only rust. The bricks that form them are becoming worn and the cement that holds those bricks together is becoming looser. So wouldn't it be so easy to leave a place where every decrepit item haunts you? While it's harder than it looks. I want to repair every item and paint a new face on each one. I want to sew buttons and smiles onto their worn bodies I want them to feel beautiful and alive. I want them to live the way they want and cry because they need to and know that it's all going to end up with some sense of bliss. It may be easy to leave something so broken, but it's hard to leave something that you can't fix. So do you stay?

Numbing the pain for a while will only make it worse when you finally feel it.

2011-04-08T05:30:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that you are for real. I don't care as long as you're mine.

2011-03-19T14:30:00.000-07:00

This is a new religion to me

I'm a VCR funeral, a dead memory waste

Down the burning ropes. Past the places where the steal beams meet concrete skies. You make your bed under the moonlight. I think it's time we said goodbye.

2011-03-12T10:56:00.000-08:00

You walked to the place where you felt the safest and did the things you felt were necessary. However you think that I left you, but I never did. I've been here all along, you just were too caught up in your habits to realize I was trying to protect you. Blame me, hate me, ignore me, I get it. But don't pretend that you don't need me. We need each other just the same.

Spirits are thick in the dusk gale. Where did her dreams go so dear? They're living one that's still here.

2011-03-10T19:51:00.000-08:00

You gave up, and that's the part that I hate the most. You quit me, and I hate quitters.

2011-03-03T14:50:00.000-08:00

Look at yourself. What are you? Why are you treating me like this? Look at yourself. Why can't I be friends with them, and why do you blame me for your troubles? Look at yourself, you're dirty and this mess you have created has ruined a lot of who I am, who I thought I was. Why did you do this to me? I don't understand why you want to hurt me. I've been trying to help, but I believe I have drowned in my own troubles nevermind yours. I was finally pulling myself together. I was done regretting my mistakes, I was done mourning, I was ready to be a new kind of human. Look at yourself. Do you feel beautiful inside? Or do you feel like the person who is hurting the people you love the most or maybe you've stopped loving them?

The Next Best Thing

2011-02-13T09:25:00.000-08:00

I am at a place in my life where all I am doing is waiting. Simply standing on a pier looking out at the horizon, asking what it can give me. I am waiting for the next place to arrive at, but I'm not walking there. It's like driving in a car, but having no idea how long it's going to take to get where your going. But, the funny thing is is that you have no idea where your going. So all you can do is wait. I realized I'm done waiting. If I'm ever going to find happiness I can't just wait for it. I have to search for it. What ever form this joy may come in I have to be the one to pursue it. The next time you get in a car, just for once know where you're going to go and how long it's going to take to get there. Make sure whatever it is that your doing will make you smile for once in spite of yourself. For, the next time I climb into my dusty SUV I am going to turn on the car,listen Stufjan Stevens' voice and for once know that I am driving to the next best thing.

We danced to Van Morrison and shut out the world.

2011-02-06T15:37:00.000-08:00

I am sorry for hurting you, but I'm also sorry due to how I'll never really feel sorry for what I did to you.

Just walk away.

2011-02-02T09:09:00.000-08:00

There's nothing about me to explain why you care.

It's not a shock, but you don't seem to mind and I just can't see how.

2011-01-27T07:41:00.000-08:00

It's hard when something ends. Not only is it painful, but it's also terrifying. You have no idea what's going to happen next, and that uncertainty leaves a continuous gaping hole. You start to feel really alone despite the people that love you who are attempting to help. But they don't matter because they aren't the one person you want, who you can't have anymore. However, try not to push those people away, let them stay and let them love you. Let them convince you everything will be okay. Let them give you happiness and then hope will soon be achievable. Don't ever be scared Bear, because I'm right here.

Wake up, you're getting high by your own supply, on your own time. Wake up.

2011-01-19T14:25:00.000-08:00

Let's have fun, let's play out under the sun

Will you take me by the hand

Let's see how far we can run

Images: toracoursey.tumblr.com

It all feels like sunshine when you smile.

2011-01-10T15:19:00.000-08:00

In retrosepct it is so important to remember that even in the darkest of moments happiness is always there, it will never leave you like normal things. It just depends on whether or not you search for it.

I'd wear your black eyes, bake you apple pies, I won't ask whys, and I'll try not to cry

2011-01-05T16:34:00.000-08:00

It hurts to realize the one person that would always be there for you is going to be there for everyone else.

2010-12-23T15:37:00.000-08:00

I don't always want you there. You don't always have to be involved with everything. I have my best friends and you can't fuck with that. It's weird to suddenly have such a different perception of someone you once believed to be so spectacular. It's weird that someone who once meant so much doesn't really mean anything anymore. So how do you tell someone you don't want them as your best friend anymore? How do I tell her that I can't deal with her using me? How do you tell them that you're done?

And the worst part is there's no one else to blame.

2010-12-18T06:56:00.000-08:00

"I just say I love them really fast because I don't want them running away.

Does it work?

Well, I'm single now."

Images: Tumblr/Neongypsy.blogspot.com

I'm not sure what this could mean, why you're so cruel? I don't think you're what you seem. I know you're worse.

2010-12-14T19:07:00.000-08:00

And you've done enough, when will you realize that you've done enough?

Images: Tumblr
Words: anonymous

Having no expectations, doesn't that just mean no disappointment?

2010-12-10T14:46:00.000-08:00

It really hurts. It really just fucking hurts.

And by protecting my heart truly, I got lost in his sounds.

2010-12-06T14:11:00.000-08:00

Dear God, make me a bird, so I can fly far, far away from here.

2010-11-25T13:38:00.000-08:00

images: Weheartit

Someday my pain, someday my pain will mark you

2010-11-20T18:39:00.000-08:00

This fall is so long, and the ground is so hard. I know I can't depend on you to catch me. For when I fall, you step to the left to be with the one you care about more. I trip and stumble and you step back and watch me plummet.

So why do I still care about you?

And oh, I want to sail away from here.

2010-10-24T09:00:00.000-07:00

There goes the fear. Watch it as it slips through the cracks, in the beaten up floor. You can hear the neighbors yelling, but you don't mind. There it goes, the fear is gone.

2010-10-14T04:26:00.000-07:00

My beloved, you are the lover of my impossible soul. Seems I got it wrong, I was chasing after something that was gone. To the black of night, now I know it's not what I wanted at all.

You broke me, I thought I knew you well.

2010-09-09T15:43:00.000-07:00

You look at me and continuously, you tell me that you love me. If you love me than wouldn't I have a solid resting place in your heart? But where am I in there? I search but to no avail, I'm nowhere to be found. I struggle to see the point of you being with me, if you are drowning me? If you cared about me shouldn't you be trying to lift me up above the rest of the world? Why is it that I go to bed crying because you can't do the things that lovers do? Walking down the sidewalk two by two, but where are we? It's never us two. You say the word sorry over and over again. That word no longer has any meaning to me. You can't tear my heart and then apologize and think I am going to be okay. I'm not ever going to be the same. I'm going to be stronger. I used to think you being with me is enough. But I know I can do better, I know I can survive without you. We are over now, I couldn't watch myself fall anymore. You treated me like shit and then you broke me. Don't come back, ever.

Dumbledore's dreams.

2010-09-04T18:58:00.000-07:00

I see you and I know you can see me too, but you can't hear me. You've put me on mute. I could scream at you, but all you could see is the tears streaming down my face. You try to avert the pain stinging in my eyes, but thats so hard when it's so intense. You sit there, but you can't talk. Why won't you talk to me? Why won't you tell me what's wrong? I'd do anything for you don't you understand that? Please, I just need you to let me in and let me stay. When I think of you I just think of your body there's no soul left, there is no life left inside your eyes and that scares me. Actually, it kills me inside. I just wish I knew you and now I'm afraid it's too late. It's like in Harry Potter when you look into Dumbledore's dreams and you can't talk or act you can only watch what's happened in the past and you can't stop the conflict. You watch history repeat itself, but you do nothing. It's as if I have to violently shake you to wake you. Wake you from what? You don't sleep. You don't live anymore. I want to talk to you but you are too confused. Do you know where you are? Who was your first kiss? Why don't you show me, you love me? Grandpa, do you know who I am?

Talk like you, eat like you, breathe like you, sleep like you. Everyday I still want you.

2010-08-29T22:59:00.000-07:00

Think about another day Wishing I was far away, Wherever I dreamed I was, you were there with me.

2010-08-05T17:38:00.000-07:00

When he left, he took a part of me with him. I've been trying to get that piece back from him ever since. I met a boy today who made that gaping whole slowly disappear. I realized that I shouldn't be looking for the missing part. I should be finding new ways to fill it. I've been hurt, but now its time to move on and fall back in love. Break my heart, I dare you.

Photos: Senseless Act of Beauty

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And if they try to tell you love fades with time, tell them there's no such thing as time.

2010-07-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

What would you do if you knew
How much i wanted you?

You'd say "hey, me too so lets get busy.
Let's raise some hell in this little city."

The dreamboat's waiting on the docks at night

Hey, whatever happened to the sweet young chick
Who fell for the babe with a strap on prick?

Pictures: http://morelikeanightmare.tumblr.com/

Lyrics: Dreamboat - Mirah

As a young girl, Louis Vuitton. With your mother, on a sandy lawn.

2010-07-26T13:13:00.000-07:00

You told me I was bad at relationships, you told me everything I said was too confusing. I simply told him, I'm only confusing when you believe everything I say has to make sense. He called me crazy, and I called him crazy in love.

Photo's: http://mighty2save.tumblr.com/page/flickr

.....she's back.

2010-07-20T06:41:00.000-07:00

Hiatus.

2010-06-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

Photos: fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumbrl.com/wildfox/genericdream

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I'll be back.

Nobody said it was easy.

2010-06-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

You can't leave me now. No, not after everything. Hold on longer, keep this struggle sprinting. I'm not always like this. It's you that I want. Come find me and never leave. -anonymous

Watch them build up a material tower Think it's not gonna stay anyway Think it's overrated For a minute, thought I couldn't tell how to fall out

2010-06-11T16:53:00.000-07:00

You just tell me what you want... And I'll be that for you

I honestly never understood love, until I met you. I didn't understand why you would want to be loved, until you loved me. I thought that I physically was unable fall in love. But then I fell deeply in love with you. I am scared. Do me a favor? Don't break me unto a million pieces, because if you do I won't be able to function. I... I just don't work without you. I don't breathe unless I know you want me, need me. My inner organs depend on your cardiovascular system to work. I hate to admit that I need you. But I do, I need you more than I need myself to be okay. Just wanted you to know - I love you.

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Holy, Moley, me, oh my.

2010-05-31T08:00:00.000-07:00

Him: Jade
Her: Alexander
Him: Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?
Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me.
Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?
Her: Yes I do.
Him: Well there's something I never told you about that night.
Her: What didn't you tell me?
Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was gonna be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you til just now.

It's the same old theme since 1916, Zombie, Zombie, Zombie

2010-05-28T17:34:00.000-07:00

I need the touch of a hand I need the touch of a hand I need the touch of a hand

Images: we heart it

Walk past you as the train came in But I missed you there and lost my mind The pulling car pushed me back As bullets pass behind your backk

2010-05-09T17:52:00.000-07:00

I hate boy problems...

Insert title here:

2010-04-24T12:21:00.000-07:00

sometimes it hurts.

it just hurts so fucking much.

Insert feelings here:

Louder, lips speak louder, better back together Still it's a sharp shock to your soft side Summer moon, catch your shut eye

2010-04-18T21:14:00.000-07:00

Loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
to san francisco, double dutch disco,
tech tv hottie, do it for scotty
do it for the living and do it for the dead
do it for the monsters under your bed
do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
broken hearts hurt but they make us strong

today i took pictures in the rain with my best friends and neon shoes

Pic: Fourteenfashionstatements.blogspot.com

Monday, I'm all high, get me out of FLA In school, yeah, I fooled ya, now I know I made a mistake Blister on a turnpike, let me by, I only wanna wonder why when I don't die

2010-04-10T10:18:00.000-07:00

I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isnt... It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can't. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me.

Photos: http://bloodshoteyes.tumblr.com

NOTE: My blog header (the picture) is getting a little old... but i'm failing to find a new one!! if you see any pics just send them my way (alostvintagehippie@gmail.com) so much appreciated kids!!

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Can't help looking back Highways flew by

2010-04-02T19:27:00.000-07:00

I have a secret, he said we were over.

2010-03-26T10:24:00.000-07:00

At night it's eating up your head,
Backed against the wall
Got you in a tight place
Though you're not alone at all
Been fighting, trying to place a name on what it's called
Make you feel like a losing streak cuz you know
But you're not involved

Louder than they

Say Aha - Santigold

Cornonet

PaperTissue

orientaltiger

(Tumblrs)

I am searching for inspiration, but it's getting harder to breathe every time I come around.

Oh shucks im flattered.

2010-03-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

I have been Given this lovely award from the lovely julia of fourteenfashionstatements.blogspot.com (check out her blog it's sick). This is my very first blogger award so dayum girl thanks this really means a lot!!

(the award says list 10 things that make you happy)

IN ABSOLUTE NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1. BEING IN NEW YORK CITY WITH A RAD OUTFIT ON

2. WHEN PEOPLE JUGDE YOU BASED OUT WHAT YOU ARE WEARING (YOU KNOW YOU'VE GOTTEN SOMEWHERE)

3. GOING OUT TO THE BEACH AT MIDNIGHT LISTENING TO THE WAVES

4. READING THE NOTEBOOK IN A DAY AND EVEN AFTER READING IT 12 TIMES STILL BEING ABLE TO CRY

5. SEEING SOMEONES FACE IN A CROWD. AND THAT SOMEONE BEING VERY SPECIAL

6. TOPSHOP X ASHISH CHEETAH WEDGES

7. WHEN YOUR LISTENING TO A SONG AND EVEN IF YOU'VE LISTENED TO IT 100 TIMES I LOVE IT WHEN YOU REALLY LISTEN TO THE LYRICS FOR THE FIRST TIME

8. ALEXANDER WANG'S CREATIONS

9. WEARING RIPPED/BLEACHED/STUDDED CLOTHING

10. TRYING TO UNDERSTAND AND REALLY FIND WHATS LOVE

I know tag naturegraffiti.com!

Where is everyone?

2010-03-16T10:07:00.000-07:00

I was on 29th street running away. Running from the one solid thing in my life and now I stand here in a McDonald's with the cash register lady asking me if I wanted my vegetarian fries to here or for go? I think she meant for here or to go, but we've all had a long days. I wondered for here? do I really want to eat here? I look around and it smells like shit, the people in here look like hell, the tiles are shining with their fresh clean look like two lovers who have just met (I can’t do it), and the lights are too bright. I started to become weaker. To go? Where would I go? If I had ordered the fries 20 minutes earlier I wouldn’t have thought twice about whether it was "to here or for go" because I had a place to "for go." But now after he kills himself and us I realize that to here is my only option left. And that to go anywhere would be pointless when your mind resides in unpleasant amounts of confusion, and despite everybody in McDonald’s sheer loneliness. I loved him he loved me. Wait what's love, though? If I don’t know what it is.. Right that mean I “never” loved him. He raped me. Nah not really but he raped my one soul of an organ beating heart. And then threw it in the gutter, the same one all of the others are in. He said yah you’re pretty much the one for me, yah we were only 17. We made love to Kings of Leon in the dark, while high as a bird and thrived on love. His hips touched mine, my lips quivered. "Mam! to here or for go?!" I had been dazed for a good time holding up the now busy McDonalds "For go" I mean "To go please." Yah I left that town.

Tyler Durden Isn't Real

2010-03-05T14:21:00.000-08:00

Take the time to take apart, each brick that sits outside your heart
And look around you
There's people everywhere
And though they don't always show it they're just as scared
And we'd be more prepared if you just pulled on through

Images: oxblood.tumblr.com

My Favorite Songs Today:

Samson - Regina Spektor
Like Something 4 Porno! - Felix da Housecat
Last of the English Roses - Pete Doherty
Corner Stone - Artic Monkeys
Snape Kills Dumbledore - White Noise
Wagon Wheel - Old Crow Medicine Show

I was thinking about you last night.

2010-02-28T16:02:00.000-08:00

When I told you how I felt I was kind of hoping you would say "You're the prettiest girl I've seen," But

when I asked you, you didn't have to say that baby because i saw it in your eyes, even though we were

only six. That didn't stop us from getting married -A

suggestions? lyrics/photos/your own words?
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/////forgive me/////it has been too long//////the wait is intolerable////forgive me my hair has grown too long/////

2010-02-20T19:29:00.000-08:00

Don't

Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us

xo .im back bitches. xo

2010-02-11T13:55:00.001-08:00

R.I.P. Alexander McQueen

My cold, cold, sailor heart says get on your way I ain't to proud to say but that's how I'm made I'll be that person 'till my dying day I try so awful hard, but I can't change

2010-02-07T17:17:00.000-08:00

and i've cried and you would think i would better for it
but the sadness just sleeps and it stays in your spine
for the rest of my life

and there is a boy in a basement with a four track machine
he's been strumming and screaming all night, down there
the tape hiss will cover the words that he sings

the city has sex with itself i suppose
as the concrete collides, the scenery grows
and the lonely once bandaged lay fully exposed
having undressed their wounds for each other

lyrics: Bright Eyes
photos:weheartit/http://coronet.tumblr.com/page/

Questions (asked by Julia):
Age: 14
Favorite Song: If I had a favorite song it would change every 30 seconds
Food I Ate Today: salad, toast, and pizza (i'm a vegetarian)
Painting: If I could paint i'd quit school, runaway and paint everything worth it. The way an artist thinks is in a whole different, exclusive world (that i will never be a part of). Needless to say my artistic talents are pretty limited...... I draw a mean stick figure though

xxxxxo

(SAINTS)

knew I was all alone then I saw this girl with the most beautiful hair she had it wrapped around her for clothes she did not wear

2010-02-03T15:45:00.000-08:00

and i don't know if it's such a good idea
cause your way down there and i'm way up here ya...
"you have really long arms
so why don't you use them to hold me tight?"

Lyrics: Charlyne Yi & matt davIS

I just got a formspring! http://www.formspring.me/AhiLppOSieT This is so sick because you can literally ask me anything and i have to come up with a really good answer..

I know i don't reveal too much about myself.. so here is a chance to ask me some things on your minds!! knock yourselves out kids

xooxx
SHO

PS
i know i have posted the second image before but it's one of those hauntingly amazing things that i will never get out of my head.. So lovely

We Were Dead Before the Ship Even Sank

2010-01-29T17:50:00.000-08:00

wake-up we're stealing cars

1996 1997 1998 we're all waiting for the year 2000
just the smell on the summer can make me fall in love
we go to the parties listen to the DJ's
dance dance dance and go crazy
she's a party queen an she's in party heaven

her clock is stuck on late
got a first name basis at 7-11
hold the slip slide taste the sweat it's salty
irrigation ditch and a swimming hole
nation-wide loved the movie

Photos via: fuckyeahskinnybitch/codyjune
Lyrics/Title: Modest Mouse

And yes I am officially one year older as of Tuesday.
Also, I'm feeling like I need some lyrics or photo suggestions. just email me at alostvintagehippie@gmail.com
okay have great weekends kids!

xoxoxooxoxox

You'll plead- you'll get down on your knees For just another taste And when you think she's let you in That's when she fades away

2010-01-23T08:17:00.000-08:00

Weeds blow tall on a broken train track
Ruth B. draws we're fixin' to get high
Maybe we'll hit the bluffs and find ourselves the same old rum

But everybody says this place is beautiful

And you'd be so crazy to say goodbye
But everything's the same this town is pitiful
And I'll be gettin' out as soon as I can fly

Life goes by on a Talihina sky

The hopped up boys are lookin' for their trouble
The knocked up girls, well they've all got their share
Ruth seems out of her mind, swears she won't give in this time

Lyrics and title: Kings of Leon
Images: Tumblr/http://iused2lovehim.blogspot.com/

Love is watching someone die.

2010-01-16T11:53:00.000-08:00

A wake up call to a rented room
Sounded like an alarm of impending doom.
To warn us it's only a matter of time.
Before we all burn

We bought some wine and some papercups
Near your daughter's school when we picked her up
And drove to the cemetery on the hill
On the hill. Death Cab for Cutie.

(All summer we just hurried
so come over, just be patient, and don't worry.
So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

And don't worry.

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't wanna cycle of recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all his friends.) Coldplay

When you lose someone important to you it feels like everything is spinning faster and faster and your one comfort becomes the stranger of a hotel room you run away to. People say everything slows down, but really nothing ever stops spinning. Like a merry-go-round you are forever bound to and even the horses have crooked smiles. It's like taking drugs and being high for weeks. Your eyes are bloodshot, the room is cloudy, and the dead dances with you. The darkness is more apparent and clear than anything else worth thinking about. I've never lost someone close to me, this is just a guess and I feel as if we need to be taught how to let someone go. What to say to to someone dying. How to tell your only 10 year old daughter that her only 40 year old dad is gone. R.I.P Mr. Coger

never take anything for granted. ever.

xoxo
hippie

I like them tall boys I like them short boys I like them brown haired boys I like them blonde boys I like them big boys I like them skinny boys I even like those scrawny Scottish into pop music but not like sorta like pop dance electro music

2010-01-12T11:37:00.000-08:00

Oceans of water underneath our feet
Terrible design
Dusty rooms you cannot sweep
Clouding up your mind

Photos: http://bonesandstyle.tumblr.com/WHI/corbasnake

They made a statue of us And it put it on a mountain top Now tourists come and stare at us Blow bubbles with their gum Take photographs have fun, have fun

2010-01-07T14:18:00.000-08:00

Photos: WHI/Burn the Witch

Look who has a tumblr.....!!!!!! http://stilllost.tumblr.com/
And the best part? I have no idea what is going to come out of it (it's pretty lame right now because I just got it, but you kids just wait, just wait!)

And a happy new year to all that is living To all that is gentle, kind, and forgiving Raise your glass and we'll have a cheer My dear acquaintance, a happy new year

2009-12-31T09:05:00.000-08:00

Please don't say we're done

When I'm not finished

I could give you so much

Make you feel, like never before

Welcome, they said welcome to the floor

Photos: weheartit/flickr

Lyrics: The XX

Title Lyrics: Regina Spektor

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

2009-12-25T18:23:00.001-08:00

Gideon. What Have You Told Us At All? Make A Sound, Come Down Off The Wall. Religion - Should Appeal To The Hearts Of The Young. Who Are You? What Have You Become?

2009-12-22T07:23:00.000-08:00

Photos: WEheartit

Words: anonymous

I was not sure why you decided to call

For the last time I talked to you, I told you not to call.

But, I didn’t know why you had called

Or maybe it was my insane imagination that the phone rang.

For it is quite impossible for you to call…

Of course I thought, all by my lonesome he wouldn’t’ have called just to hear my voice

But then he did always ask why he often saw us together in his daydreams, I eighty-two and he eighty-five both in our rocking chairs

Not needing to talk for this silence surrounding us, is no silence it’s just us listening to our lover breathing

He always wondered to himself why he saw me, beautiful…

And why he had never cared until it was to late.

He never got that he’s in love for no one has loved him,

But me.

And even I never told him,

Just pretended he was another petulant victim.

Just another boy torn up by my beauty.

Though a doctor might have been diagnosed me in love…

But I see no more love, in this dark hole surrounding what he thought was lust.

For, I believe in something more crucial than love

This feeling doesn’t have a word

If he thought he was feeling love

He was all but wrong

He was feeling much more than love

It is a feeling without a word for no soul could find it

It’s a feeling that you feel. It’s the way you still love me,

Even if I take my shirt off for other men when we’re are not together

For when the men surround me and I brake their hearts

Each and every time I pretend they are you.

For, I want you to feel the pain I felt

When you died.

Telephone poles keep the time A rhythmic metronome of kinds It's the same beat as this song And might just last a lifetime long Where hours can come and go

2009-12-19T18:19:00.000-08:00

You shot me up, yeah

You filled my cup, oh
You sailed my boat

You were my last hope
You took my very last hope away

Oh you, you will be loved by someone good
And you, you will be loved by somebody good
You have been loved

You dropped the bomb
And now you're gone

I held you dear
You swallowed my fears

Photo's: weheartit, drifter+gypsy, skinny, http://iused2lovehim.blogspot.com/(totally cool blog)
Lyrics: Sia

Today was a bad day. Everything had some sort of imperfection. I saw a movie, where thought I was going to laugh and ended up crying. It was one of those movies that made you think about dying and that scares me more than anything. Shit. I was with people I loved and that love me, but somehow I felt I could only hate them. Overall, awful day.
xoxo
haha sorry kids about that bright yellow it's what is making me feel better and happy... haha o god it is bright
Alostvintagehippie (tomorrow will be better, tomorrow will be better)
ps: WATCH "MERCY" ON NBC ON WEDNESDAYS AT 8/7c (AAHHMMAAZZAAZZIINNNGGG SHOW)

Lonelily

2009-12-14T13:44:00.000-08:00

You never get to choose
You live on what they send you
You know the kind of use
Things you love will get you
One foot in the grave
One foot in the shower
There’s never time to save
You’re paying by the hour

And that’s just the way it goes
Falling awake
And that’s just the way it goes

Words: Gary Jules

Photos: Skinny

Also sorry for the shorterish posts lately! on friday ima on vacation.. sooooo get ready...

xooxxoox

"I could've sworn that night when i told you i love you, you said we were forever. But, now I am alone. You lied to me. The next time you say forever I'll punch you in the face."

2009-12-10T14:10:00.000-08:00

Images: Weheartit

for⋅ev⋅er

–adverb
1.
without ever ending; eternally: to last forever.
2.
continually; incessantly; always: He's forever complaining.
–noun
3.
an endless or seemingly endless period of time:

"FOR EMMA, FOREVER" -BON IVER

"Not talkin' 'bout a year
No not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
In my life anymore
Forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do From you" -Ben Harper

Forever

Opinions?

Let us be in inspired. Let us not be able to fall asleep. Let us have the ghosts take us away to a place where we can dance.

2009-12-08T15:25:00.000-08:00

Photos: Weheartit, tumblr, fffound

Think of all the ways
Momentary phase
Just like yesterday
I told you I would stay

I wonder who Stevie Wonder wonders about in the night? I wonder if Mr. Wonder wonders about a love?

2009-12-02T18:16:00.000-08:00

A brush through her hair, children kissing upstairs
Keeps her up with her want for her savior

The sun on the sand, on her knees and her hands
As she begs for her fish from the water
But turn them away, she's a whip and a slave

Given time she may find something better
Oh how the rain sounds as loud as a lover's words
And now and again she's afraid when the sun returns

Sometimes I still need you.

2009-11-26T19:27:00.000-08:00

"It hurts so much to say good-bye because we had to do this million times in former lives. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected."

New Music:

Heart Skipped a Beat - The xx

Writer's Block - Just Jack

Burial - Miike Snow

Biggie Smalls - Starfucker

Images: Flickr/weheartit/http://bonesandstyle.tumblr.com

(Happy Thanksgiving Kids)

oxoxoxoxo

My mind runs. I can never catch it even if I got a head start

2009-11-22T11:54:00.000-08:00

My heart thump not from being nervous

Sometimes I'm thinking God made me special here on purpose

So all the while 'til I'm gone make my words important so

If I slip away, if I die today the last thing you remember won't
Be about some apple bottom jeans with the boots with the fur

Baby how I dream of being free since my birth

Cursed but the demons I confronted would disperse

Have you ever heard of some shit so real
Beyond from the heart, from the soul you can feel?

Lyrics: Kid Cudi (The Prayer)

Photos: flickr, weheartit, thedrifterandthegypsy, and fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumblr.com/http://bonesandstyle.tumblr.com/

Notes: (RIP) Daul Kim. No one will ever forget you.

You write such pretty words But life's no storybook Love's an excuse to get hurt And to hurt.

2009-11-17T12:49:00.000-08:00

Girls are like apples… the best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren’t as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when, in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree…

Photos/words: http://fruitlikelips.blogspot.com/

P.S.
I also (accidently) followed my own blog..haha... So how would I go about un-following it?

Have you ever fell out of love with someone right when they fall in love with you? I fucking hate that.

2009-11-13T16:19:00.000-08:00

Images: http://papertissue.tumblr.com/

And I'm in Love With How You Feel

2009-11-07T07:48:00.001-08:00

I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand.
Kill these sensations, make me feel the pleasures of a normal man.

It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand.
On the tenth floor, down the backstairs into no man's land.

Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now.
I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow.

What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again.

I'm watching you, I watch it all, I take no pity from your friends.
Who is right and who can tell and who gives a damn right now.

Artist: Joy Division (@fourteenfashionstatements.blogspot.com/)

Photos: http://blog.freepeople.com/weheartit/flickr/http://egotrippingatthegates.blogspot.com/http://fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumblr.com/

Also: all photos from last post were from: http://fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumblr.com/ and weheartit

A call for love. Only broke him again.

2009-11-01T13:20:00.000-08:00

“Every journey begins with the first step,” I hear.

Love is the greatest journey of them all.

And it should never end.

But she hung up.

Inspiring words: RalphF.

Images: we<3it,flickr,and>

Maybe next time he comes around he'll actually love me

2009-10-31T12:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Halloween!

The one night you can put on a mask and have it become your face.

Be safe kids! Or not....

xxx

Why so blue?

2009-10-26T16:28:00.000-07:00

You can find him sittin' on your doorstep
Waiting for the surprise
It will feel like he's been there for hours
And you can tell that he'll be there for life

Daydreamer, with eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter because he's there for you when he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same, waits for you and then sees you through
There's no way I could describe him
All I say is, just what I'm hoping for

Song: Daydreamer

Artist: Adele

Photo's: we<3it/http://papertissue.tumblr.com

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in love at first site?

Do you believe in second chances?

How do you know when you are in love?

Opinions?

I believe you know that you are in love when that morning coffee doesn't wake you up. When all the melodic music suddenly becomes dull. When the ocean waves don't look frightening, but inviting. I believe you know you are in love when he says your name in a crowd and his eyes smile at you and when he says he loves you in front of friends.

No.

You knows its love when every page of your journal says your first name and his last name.

xxxx

I used to believe in forever . . . but forever was too good to be true.

2009-10-17T20:11:00.001-07:00

So you’re always honest? she said

Aren’t you? he questioned rasing an eyebrow at his teenage lover

No, she told him

Well, that’s good to know, I guess, He spat in a sarcastic utterance

I’m not saying I’m a liar… said she with a convincing smile

He raised his eyebrows.

That’s not how I meant it anyways… She explains seeing his patience is shortening

How’d you mean it then?

I just… I don’t always say what I feel.

Why not?

Because the truth sometimes hurts… She tries once more to explain

Yeah, he states with reluctance

So do lies though…

And it gets to a point where none of it seems real.

2009-10-10T19:36:00.000-07:00

I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk

I keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actor's West side loft

Supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone
When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend

I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit

And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it

But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back

Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag

Photos : weheartit/flickr/http://www.dripbook.com/barbaravidal/book/personal/http://iused2lovehim.blogspot.com/2009/05/love-is.html?zx=95479d83d045ee9c

Song: Lua

Artist: Bright Eyes

Thank You @http://fourteenfashionstatements.blogspot.com/ for my very first suggestion on lyricss!

Keep em coming

xxxxx

Sweet Pee, you were the one I tried to draw

2009-10-02T03:53:00.000-07:00

Give me your hand
And take what you will tonight, I'll give it as fast
And high as the flame will rise
Cinder and smoke

Some whispers around the trees
The juniper bends
As if you were listening
Give me your hand

Your mother is drunk as all the firemen shake
A photo from father's arms
Cinder and smoke

You'll ask me to pray for rain
With ash in your mouth
You'll ask it to burn again

xxxo

song: Cinder and Smoke

Artist:Iron & Wine

Photos: all from the spooky and beautiful blog of http://fruitlikelips.blogspot.com/

my dear, we are falling

2009-09-28T17:19:00.000-07:00

images: some from we<3it

2009-09-20T14:44:00.001-07:00

For a second there i thought you disappeared

It rains a lot this time of year

And we both go together if one falls down

I talk out loud like you're still around

Double Post

2009-09-12T19:33:00.000-07:00

Brooklyn we go hard
We on the look for the advantage, we work hard
And if we seem to rough it up a bit

We broke but we rich at heart
Pull ourselves up now we won't choke

It's our time, put the lights on us

War tactics they make me sick
reel your heart in run away with it

Smile in your face, undermine your back
got guns for the strength they lack

So if you know another way
you can't look the other way

if you know another way,
tell them so right to their face

We think you're a joke
Shove your hope where it don't shine

http://ohaylalala.blogspot.com/

http://weheartit.com/raeraelynn?page=1

http://amanda-thomas.blogspot.com/

Song: Shove It - Santogold

reel your heart in run away with it

2009-09-12T19:14:00.000-07:00

"I would die for you. But i absolutely won't live for you."

2009-09-02T16:39:00.000-07:00

It's not the music that i'm in to

It's just an attitude,

Kids at the disco act so cool

But I can see right through,

But I can see right through

cobrasnake

weheartit

lyrics: Cut Copy

Hands down, I’m too proud for love. But eyes shut, its you I’m thinking of.

2009-08-21T15:44:00.000-07:00

My ipod is running low... any music suggestions?

images: weheartit

Wondering Where You Are

2009-08-17T12:16:00.000-07:00

She eats nectarines with honey and spends her daddy's money so easy

She cuts cherry pie while she looks you in the eye so easy

The innocent naivety of hairless cheek

The politics of generosity make me weak

You put it on me then left me lonely
You put it on me, you put it on me

There's an assassin out to get me and they claim that she's never missed
The one with an ex-lover whom she claims to have never kissed

We turned at twenty paces for love as a duel and we stood as still as stone
I can't imagine that this is in the best interest of flesh and bone

song: Put It On Me - Ben Harper

photos: weheartit.com

The Boy is Back and I'm in Love With Him.... Again

2009-08-13T19:52:00.000-07:00

You think the birds are pretty
and you sleep eight hours a night.

And I'm fog, out of the city,
and still you stake it all.

And trains stop for you and so do the boys,
when you run your fingers through your hair.

But resistance is futile.

And I am gonna drink your blood.
And I am gonna drink your blood.
And I am gonna drink your blood.
And I am gonna drink your blood.

Just breathe, and mouth "goodbye."
If you want, I'll give you eternal life.
Well, not so much life,
but have you ever seen a good zombie movie?

Well, like that, but you'll be smarter
and you'll stay twenty-three.

please leave a comment with a song or photograph for me to post if you would like?

xxx

song: Blah Blah Blah by Say Hi to Your Mom

photos:

http://trashpower.blogspot.com

thedrifterandthegypsy.blogspot.com

http://ilovewildfox.blogspot.com/

newbornhippy.blogspot.com